The barking of my dog awaken me..And as I opened my eyes, I saw our clock and noticed that it was already an hour past 10:00 am..At this time, I should be done with my household chores, but unfortunately, I was not able to do it..as i sat on my bed, my hands lingered on my pillow and there I noticed those tear stains,.. and again tears suddenly fell from my eyes as I recalled what happened last night....
We were having fun last night..we exchanged stories as if there is no more tomorrow.. We tried opening up things that we thought could help us know each other more..but then it came to the point that we have to stop the conversation and sleep already.. as I put down the phone.. I started to think..would this be the right time for me to open up my secrets with him.. he has already gained my trust and I feel he has to know the truth for it would be unfair to him.. But fear began to consume me.. I know if I would tell this to him, I would eventually loose his trust and worst entirely lost him..While I'm still convincing myself whether I made the right decision or not, I started to dial his number..and as soon as I heard him said hello, tears began to cloud my eyes..I know it sound nonsense to him when i asked him some silly questions..I was really talking in riddles..until finally, he asked me a striking question..and that question broke my defense and the next thing I knew I was telling him everything..As soon as I'm done with my story, all I heard from him is "NILOKO MO AKO".. I could sense how hurt he is from the tone of his voice.. I could not help but blame myself for the pain he felt..I felt the urge to scream and cry out loud but all I did was to silently wept and wait for his decision as to what would happen to us..I was shaking inside and I tried to find comfort by thinking that everything would be alright between us..and then he finally said to me that he would be thinking it over the night..As soon as I heard him say that..I know..I lost him..And as I put down the phone once again..I couldn't help but earnestly pray to God to give him back to me..As I laid my back on my bed, I could not help the tears that keeps on falling from my eyes and the last thing I knew I was hugging my big teddy bear..imagining that this was the love that I lost..
The music from my radio brought me back to reality.. The sound was so sweet as it hum the song "When I see you smile"..how ironic the music could get.. I decided to lie down again and wait for his text message.. as the song ended..my eyes started to close and the last thing I knew, I was once again crying myself to sleep...
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The barking of my dog awaken me..And as I opened my eyes, I saw our clock and noticed that it was already an hour past 10:00 am..At this time, I should be done with my household chores, but unfortunately, I was not able to do it..as i sat on my bed, my hands lingered on my pillow and there I noticed those tear stains,.. and again tears suddenly fell from my eyes as I recalled what happened last night....
We were having fun last night..we exchanged stories as if there is no more tomorrow.. We tried opening up things that we thought could help us know each other more..but then it came to the point that we have to stop the conversation and sleep already.. as I put down the phone.. I started to think..would this be the right time for me to open up my secrets with him.. he has already gained my trust and I feel he has to know the truth for it would be unfair to him.. But fear began to consume me.. I know if I would tell this to him, I would eventually loose his trust and worst entirely lost him..While I'm still convincing myself whether I made the right decision or not, I started to dial his number..and as soon as I heard him said hello, tears began to cloud my eyes..I know it sound nonsense to him when i asked him some silly questions..I was really talking in riddles..until finally, he asked me a striking question..and that question broke my defense and the next thing I knew I was telling him everything..As soon as I'm done with my story, all I heard from him is "NILOKO MO AKO".. I could sense how hurt he is from the tone of his voice.. I could not help but blame myself for the pain he felt..I felt the urge to scream and cry out loud but all I did was to silently wept and wait for his decision as to what would happen to us..I was shaking inside and I tried to find comfort by thinking that everything would be alright between us..and then he finally said to me that he would be thinking it over the night..As soon as I heard him say that..I know..I lost him..And as I put down the phone once again..I couldn't help but earnestly pray to God to give him back to me..As I laid my back on my bed, I could not help the tears that keeps on falling from my eyes and the last thing I knew I was hugging my big teddy bear..imagining that this was the love that I lost..
The music from my radio brought me back to reality.. The sound was so sweet as it hum the song "When I see you smile"..how ironic the music could get.. I decided to lie down again and wait for his text message.. as the song ended..my eyes started to close and the last thing I knew, I was once again crying myself to sleep...