All I can hear inside my room is the alarm of my cellphone.. As I snoozed the alarm, I start scanning my messages..and to my dismay I did not received any messages from him..I started to count until finally I decided to give him a ring.. The moment I heard his voice.. I could not help but recall what happened last night.. After a few exchanges of ritual messages, a long pause entered the conversation..At last I decided to break the silence..with all the guts I can get, I asked him "so, paano na tayo ngayon?".. again a long silence fell between us.. I almost caught my breath when he finally said "Ok na..tanggap ko na.."A gush of relief fell on my shoulders..and just like before we started talking again about things that concern us..Until finally he had to go for he has to accompany his cousin to the mall.. I could not wait till night to come so that I could already talk to him.. The exchange of text messages is not enough to cover the anxiety that I'm feeling..i could sense the big change that happened to him.. When he got home..we went online for a while and then we decided to continue the conversation in the phone..things we're going the way they used to be...until finally I opened up to him that something is bothering me..and that concerns him..he reacted to that by saying that "Sa totoo lang hindi ko kasi matanggap..pinipilit kong tanggapin pero hindi ko talaga makaya.." I tried to get all the strength that I can manage..the truth really hurt me..and once again I was soaking myself in tears while he plays sentimental songs on the line..he kept on asking me "Umiiyak ka ba?" the answer was too obvious that I didn't bother to reply to him anymore..the next thing he said to me is "Okay lang yan..makakalimutan mo rin ako..tumahan ka na pwede" Those words seemed to contain a knife that cut all my hope..I tried to answer him back but i could not just find the right words to say..At the back of my mind I was telling him that it sound so easy on his part to tell me those things for he has already recovered..sad to say that I don't have the guts to tell him those thoughts.. I just continued crying and the more he said my name, the louder my cry got..until finally we have to end the conversation.. Once again as I lay down on my bed, I could not help but think of our happy times together..and silently I asked myself..would those memories happen again?..
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All I can hear inside my room is the alarm of my cellphone.. As I snoozed the alarm, I start scanning my messages..and to my dismay I did not received any messages from him..I started to count until finally I decided to give him a ring.. The moment I heard his voice.. I could not help but recall what happened last night.. After a few exchanges of ritual messages, a long pause entered the conversation..At last I decided to break the silence..with all the guts I can get, I asked him "so, paano na tayo ngayon?".. again a long silence fell between us.. I almost caught my breath when he finally said "Ok na..tanggap ko na.."A gush of relief fell on my shoulders..and just like before we started talking again about things that concern us..Until finally he had to go for he has to accompany his cousin to the mall.. I could not wait till night to come so that I could already talk to him.. The exchange of text messages is not enough to cover the anxiety that I'm feeling..i could sense the big change that happened to him.. When he got home..we went online for a while and then we decided to continue the conversation in the phone..things we're going the way they used to be...until finally I opened up to him that something is bothering me..and that concerns him..he reacted to that by saying that "Sa totoo lang hindi ko kasi matanggap..pinipilit kong tanggapin pero hindi ko talaga makaya.." I tried to get all the strength that I can manage..the truth really hurt me..and once again I was soaking myself in tears while he plays sentimental songs on the line..he kept on asking me "Umiiyak ka ba?" the answer was too obvious that I didn't bother to reply to him anymore..the next thing he said to me is "Okay lang yan..makakalimutan mo rin ako..tumahan ka na pwede" Those words seemed to contain a knife that cut all my hope..I tried to answer him back but i could not just find the right words to say..At the back of my mind I was telling him that it sound so easy on his part to tell me those things for he has already recovered..sad to say that I don't have the guts to tell him those thoughts.. I just continued crying and the more he said my name, the louder my cry got..until finally we have to end the conversation.. Once again as I lay down on my bed, I could not help but think of our happy times together..and silently I asked myself..would those memories happen again?..